Friday, February 1, 2008

What Just Hit Me

The last 32 hours have been some of the most difficult of my life. I've been tested in many ways and through it I have doubted myself, my decisions, my faith... When you start the journey of adoption, it all seems so simple. There's this child that needs a home. And you have a home and feel you could love this child just like your own. But once you get into it, the simplicity of it fades and you can become overwhelmed with the challenge the process to adopt presents.

Anyways, in 15 minutes Kim leaves on a flight to Brussels to resume our adoption of Josiah. I hop on a plane from Stavanger Norway to Brussels in 7 hours. But hopefully sometime around 11am CET we will be reunited. And on Sunday we'll be on a flight to Liberia with the other couples who have experienced this roller coaster ride.

I'm not sure what happened in Liberia on Thursday, but the bottom line is that AoH felt comfortable enough that we would indeed get our visas that they encouraged us to proceed with our travel. So the same struggles and difficulty i faced making the decision to stop seemed multiplied trying to make the decision to go again. Anyways, that's where we are. We are prepared for the worse and hopeful for a miracle. We believe in the end we will come home with Josiah and feel he is worth everything we've invested in this journey, but are still trusting for a miracle with Gabriella. We are praying for God's favor and protection as we travel and will be available to whatever God will's.

Anyways, please continue to pray as you see fit. Kim and I have been totally drained by the last day and need to rejuvinate in Brussels in order to be ready to serve Josiah, Gabriella and the rest of those God would have us.

Lastly please pray for my mom for peace, and comfort for my grandma. They have removed everything from my grandma and have boosted her pain meds to make her comfortable. My mother had to gather the things from the nursing home and she was placed on hospice and in all likelihood will die during this trip. So my heart grieves.

Thank you all for being so supportive. We could not have done it without you. We love you and can't wait to share our story and children with you once we are home.


Becky said...

I can't even imagine how exhausted you both most must be. I am so happy to see that you are resuming your trip. I will be praying that you both get the rest you need over these next two days.

Stefanie said...

Kim & Dale -

May God bless you with peace, comfort, good rest and his good will in this adoption. May His Glory be evident in all. I will continue to be praying for you both.

Stefanie Solt

Jamie said...

Praying that the Lord will sustain you during this time- that your faith will increase during this knot in the road, that you will rise against all roadblocks Satan tries to throw your way as you serve the King of Kings. I am glad to see you are continuing on to Liberia.

jeff & katie said...

Praying for you both... that God will do what only HE can do in your time in Liberia with your kids. Praying for loads of rest too!!
In Him,
Katie B.

Traci~ said...

Just wanted to say we are praying for you both as you travel to Liberia.
Traci (AOH group)

Brandi said...

Continued prayers for you guys. Especially for rest so that you arrive in Liberia ready for the journey and not just exhausted and ready for it to be over. I really want you guys to ENJOY Liberia!

PS You may want to read the post on the aohgroup from Addy's hope and consider changing some of the wording here b/c I believe they were cleared of all wrongdoing. . .

Lots of love and we better get lots of pics SOON!